Blog Challenge #20

DAY | 20 Things you like and dislike about yourself.

Today, I will just give 10 things that I like and dislike about myself.

Things I like about myself

~ Little creative.  As I've said before I love D-I-Y projects. I also draw but I'm not good at it. I like making scrapbooks or anything interesting. 

~ Sense of humor. I love to have a good laugh and I want to see people around me having a good one too. I love to make jokes with my friends but it's a kind of sarcastic. Not everyone would understand a joke but I guess I can easily catch up with most of the jokes.

~ Honest. Actually, I'm not sure if I should love this part of me because sometimes I can be brutally honest and hurt a person's feelings. I am honest in a way that I would say what I believe is right and what I think. Don't worry, if I am wrong I also admit it. So, I love it because I am honest when it comes to expressing my feelings towards others. 

~ Understanding. At first, I thought I am not that understanding enough but when I encounter and when I learned about my best friend's depression I've discovered this side of me. Seeing her struggles I've learned to be more patient and understand her situation but not only her situation but other people's situation too. Because of her I've become mature.

~ Adventurous. I love to try new things. Explore. Travel. Experience. Learn. I'm a lost soul.

~ Try to be positive. I always try to see that every cloud  has a silver lining. Though, there are times that I am on the verge of giving up.

~ Encourage others. I always encourage my friends or anyone especially when they are down but there are times that no matter what I do I can't even encourage myself. I remember that one of my students thanked me because I encouraged her to pursue learning English, she was shy and she was doubtful with her own capabilities (I can see myself through her). I think most of the time I give compliments to boost someone's confidence.

~ Listen to people. I like hearing different people stories because in that way I would know them more and understand them better.

~ My eyes. I actually love and hate my eyes because they are expressive that I can't even give a good lie. Hahaha And according to my exes Hahaha ang feeling noh? ~ this is one thing that they like about me. hahahaha

~ My eyebrow. I am thankful that I have a thick eyebrow and I don't need eyebrow pencils or gel to enhance it but they are not on fleek *sigh* I don't know how to do that *crying emoticon*

Things I don't like about myself

~ My resting bitch face. People often misinterpret my facial expression. Their usual first impression about me is "snobbish", "mataray" and they get intimidated. 

~ Good at starting something. As what I've said in the beginning of this blog challenge that I am always good at starting something but never finish it. Procrastination always hit me in the middle of anything that I do or simply I'm just T-A-M-A-D *cries* But now, I've changed and I wanted to prove that I can finish something. Hahahaha *fingerscrossed*

~ Pessimistic. Yep, a bit ironic in what I've said earlier about trying to be positive. Most of the time, I think the negative things around me and when it hits me it stays for a long time. Just like the past few months, this is one of the reason why I can't post because someone or something inside me is pulling me not to it's because I am not good enough. They argue inside and often negativity wins but don't worry I'm trying my best to fight it *wink*

~ Moody. I am very moody, I don't even understand myself. Example, we are talking right now I am in a good mood and after a minute I just get mad randomly to small things. Is this even normal?

~ Impulsive. I feel so sad about this, most of the time I can't control myself, especially when I'm very happy I buy or say things that are unnecessary *sighs*

~ Low-self esteem. I hate this, I really hate myself for not believing in myself. Do you know what I mean? There are times that I question my ability and my capability. There are times that I just want to disappear. There are times that I question why am I still living? what's my purpose? what do I want to do? can I even realize it? There are many questions running into my head that it consumes me and it's hard. I am just thankful that my best friend is there to encourage me (actually, if she also had this, I am the one who will encourage her hahaha)

~ Allergies. I believe that I've explained in the topic "what makes me different from everyone else" that I get random red marks around my neck and people thought that it's ~ I don't want to say this but I will tell you again ~ a hickey *facepalm*. And also I can't eat shrimps, even the smell of it would trigger an allergic reaction. One time when I was at work, our company provide free meal to full time employees, the viand was shrimp I was so tempted to eat but I shouldn't so I just smelled it and then my heart started to palpitate and rashes came out. I was advised to go to the hospital but I refused and decided to home. *booo* 

~ Bad temper. Yes, I admit I had a very bad one and I hate myself because I can't control it. Right now, I'm trying my best to take over it because I've learned my lesson and it's not good to let your temper over power your rational thinking.

~ My hair. Natural wavy hair + a baby bangs = Bad hair day everyday. This is the reason why I got my hair rebonded but after a year your natural hair will come out *sighs*

~ My body. What I hate about my body is my boobs! Hahahaha I am flat-chested, literally flat-chested and I envy other girls and my belly is bigger than my boobs Hahahaha I look like a rectangular plywood *crying a lot*

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