2018: Lessons and Realizations

As we write the first blank page of our life, allow me to share my 2018's lessons and realizations. 2018 was quite a ride, it torn me emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially but despite these I had a productive year (not referring to the blog posts, okay? Hahaha)

Let's talk about each aspect of my life what happened and its lessons and the realizations I had.

LOVE

The topic that everyone loves, the topic that gives us both happiness and pain. You might be wondering if this is still about my ex, well, yes, partly, it does. I could still remember that I made a promise that 2018 will be more on self-love. But life had another plan, I met the person that I liked even before my ex. We had a short romance. It was quite funny though. I called him my Sinulog Love because it all happened last Sinulog. No worries no strings attached, okay? 

When our short-lived romance ended, it was painful. I am not sure why, maybe because together with its end was also our friendship. Maybe because I liked him and was still hoping that we could make it? Maybe because I just realized how stupid I was to fall for him, without knowing deeply his intentions? 

I realized that I should really give myself a break. I had enough. I could not let anyone to break my heart again, it took me years before I put it back together. Love life in particular, is essential to spice up your life but I also realized that having a relationship with YOURSELF is way better. After what happened, I had given myself more care, love and the healing it needed. I believe that I deserve nothing less. For 2019? I'll focus more on myself. 

FAMILY

Last year was one hell of a year for us, my family was tested on how strong we are. It all started when my brother was involved in a fight, he did not do anything wrong, he was attacked by this person with no clear reason at all. If you remember a video that went viral of a person who attacked someone in a swimming pool in Minglanilla. It was him. It was such devastating time for us. My brother was traumatized, everyone was traumatized but me and my mom needed to be strong for them. In addition, the justice system in the Philippines is so slow.

Today, I am thankful that it happened because I was able to know who were the people who are willing to be with us. I remember those who don't. I always will. Even those police officers who did not treat us well when we complained. I remember dearly your faces sir. Karma is a bitch. I'll just wait. 

Anyhow, I am so thankful of the lessons we learned from that. I learned that no matter what happened we always got each others back. Second, to never trust a police officer. I don't want to generalize but I no longer have the heart to give even an inch of a trust to them. Third, remember and be thankful to those who were there for you and even to those who were not. Fourth, there were times that you need to comprise for the betterment of all. Lastly, there is always a silver lining to every difficult situation. See the beauty in it, and I thank you! AHAHAHAHA (Catriona, ikaw ba yan!?)

FRIENDS

I gained and lost few friends. I met new friends in the second course I enrolled in. I learned that there are still people you could accept you for being who you are. No fake facade. You can be you. I am truly thankful to you guys! You know who you are *winks*

To my ever dear Bespren, who's always willing to listen to my nonsense rant in life even though I know she too is fighting her own demons inside. I am always and forever be thankful to have you in my life. Thank you for celebrating even the smallest success I had in life. Sorry for being a bit brutal, you know that it's for your own good *winks*

I learned that it's better to lose some friend especially the toxic ones. It's okay, let them go they deserve it. They don't deserve you. Be kind to yourself.

CAREER

If you have read my previous post, I said that I want to give up my dream. I just realized I don't have a clear dream at all, how weird HAHAHAHAH. As you know, I am pursuing a career in teaching, I am still not a 100% sure if this is for me, but as I had my practice teaching in one of the public schools in my area, I am happy teaching these kids. I am not saying that it was easy, it was tough there are a lot of things you needed to prepare.

Out of many jobs that I had tried it's in teaching that I find myself smiling even though how tiring it is. I taught foreign students, Filipino nurses and now these kids. I could not explain very well how I feel but I know that I am happy.

I learned that it's okay to do major career shifts until you reach what makes you happy, it may take time but it's worth it. 

LIFE

Life in general. I had learned that no matter how many times that life would knocked you out, have the courage to get back. 2018 was full of lessons to me. 

First, things could not go as you planned it, learn to go with the flow sometimes but never lose track of your goals. 

Second, be thankful for everything, you may not understand the situation for now but there is always a reason why it happened to you. See the beauty in it. 

Third, losing is also synonymous to gaining, ironic? But in life it is. Trust me. 

Fourth, you can always restart your life anytime you want, I am the living proof of that. You may fail now but it doesn't define you. 

Fifth, Be kind to yourself. 

Lastly, trust Him, he knows better than anyone of us. Trust His will, ask for guidance, He will surely lead you the way.

OMG!! You reached this part? CONGRATULATIONS!!

I am thankful that you have given this post a time to read. I am hoping that you may reach what your heart desires. Remember you are loved. You are beautiful. You are strong.

LET'S ROCK 2019!!

P.S please drop a comment if you have read this post. Thankies! *winks*